Archive for October, 2009

We’ll Carry On

October 21, 2009 1 comment

Back when I first started this blog about two months ago, I talked about My Chemical Romance, and how they’re the music that makes me feel better about life, with their motivational lyrics and up-beat guitar riffs.

Well, a little under a month before that post – or this blog – existed, my grandmother went to the hospital due to some major issues with her bowel system. The endeavour ended in her colon being removed, and she was in the hospital, followed by a rehabilitation facility, for about two weeks after.

Begin downward spiral.

After her leave, she only got worse, she was malnourished, and complained of an awful taste in her mouth, and lack of appetite. It wasn’t long before she was back in the hospital from a lowering blood pressure. Doctors soon figured out that it was something with her inhaler, the fact that she was on oxygen, and a couple of other factors, that were bringing that bad taste and lack of appetite. Another week in the hospital, and back to that rehab center, and she’s home again. Does better at home this time.

She goes again. Vomiting, this time, had a major blockage in her digestive system. Had more surgery, and just like the colon removal, came out like a “rockstar”, as her surgeon, Dr. Slam (Greatest. Name. EVER.) called her.

Funny thing, rockstars. They come in all different shapes and sizes – trust me, just look at MySpace. No one would ever expect a rockstar to be an eighty-one year old grandmother in the hospital. But you see a lot of rockers going out in the same way; Drugs, violence, self-destruction. Kurt Cobain shot himself, Jimi Hendrix finally lost after years and years of drug abuse, Elvis was the same. But, my grandmother wasn’t a Jimi Hendrix or a Kurt Cobain. She was a George Harrison. As I’m sure you know; George passed away quietly after a long battle with lung cancer in 2001.

If I haven’t made it clear to you already; On October 17th, 2009, 8:20 P.M., my grandmother passed away quietly in a hospital room, with my father, my uncle, and my grandfather at her side the entire time. Her family meant the entire world to her, and she was with them to the end. Quite literally.

October 17th, 2009, 8:20 P.M., I was putting my uniform on in the High School band room. It was the Golden Sound Showcase, the Ohio Musical Education Association competition that we hold each year. I had spent the last few hours getting the field ready for the twelve bands that would attend, and I was about ready to take to that field myself. Little did I know that my grandmother had just passed away in Mount Carmel East Hospital just a moment ago.

When I finally received word of her death, my world fell away, all of that happiness, all of that pride, all of that everything I had receieved from the day just disappeared. I cried. I had never cried harder.

After a bit of time to gather myself together, my mother’s parents left, and I soon went to sleep, wanting this day to end.

3:15 A.M., October 18th, 2009. I woke up. Couldn’t sleep. Too many thoughts were racing through my head. I went over to the desktop, and shifted through my library. One song popped out to me; Welcome To The Black Parade, by MCR. If you don’t know the song, you should go hunt it down on YouTube or Yahoo! Music. I quietly sang the lyrics, thinking about my grandmother the whole time, and I cried again. When that epic bridge came on, with all of the sayings of self-pride and what-not, I couldn’t even sing anymore. All I could do was cry. But, you know what? I felt better. I felt like she was closer to me now, even if I don’t believe in the afterlife. I still felt like she was watching me.

Her life will be honored today with a visitation, and it will be the last time I see her. But, you know what? I’m not scared to see her. I want to be there for my father, and for my grandfather, and for her.

Doris Hellstrom; May 28th, 1928 – October 17th, 2009. A true rockstar. Rest in peace, Grandma, I’ll never stop missing you.

“We’ll carry on, we’ll carry on. And though you’re dead and gone, believe me, your memory will carry on.”


Today In Music

October 9, 2009 Leave a comment

Well, children, today is a momentous occasion. Why? Because there are things going on the musical world that don’t relate to Miley Cyrus or Lady Gaga. In case you decided to live under a rock for the past month or so, here’s what’s been goin’ down;

  • The new Paramore album, “Brand New Eyes”, was released on the 29th. Critics seem to like it. Review coming eventually.
  • The new Dethklok album, “The Dethalbum II”, also came out on the 29th. I want some Duncan Hills Coffee. Review to come.
  • The new Muse album, “The Resistance”, came out on the 19th. Much rejoice. Guess what? There’ll be a review.
  • Marilyn Manson got THE SWINE FLU OMGWTF PANIC(!) IN THE STREETS MARILYN MANSON HAS THE MOTHER FUCKING SWINE FLU!!!!!!!!!1111!!1one!!!! Only not. Turns out he was just being an attention hog. I still love that guy, though.
  • The lead guitarist of Five Finger Death Punch, Zoltan Bathory, went missing after the release party for the band’s new album. He was found two days later, and their tour started as planned. Open the sky.
  • Kanye West was a serious dick and interrupted Taylor Swift as she accepted an award at the VMAs. But, of course, you already knew that. Ima let u finish!
  • The new Backstreet Boys album is being enjoyed by 13-year old girls, and hated by everyone old enough to understand that AUTOTUNE SOUNDS LIKE SHIT. I want your PDA-A-A-A.
  • My Chemical Romance now offers the ability to create an account on their website/blog. You can manage your own blog, make and add friends… and that’s about it. Welcome to the Black Parade.
  • The Mastodon/Dethklok tour is going nicely. Brent hasn’t been knocked into a coma again, so that’s a good start.
  • Cradle of Filth announced back in August that they’re going back to the studio to work on album #9. It’s expected to be released sometime in 2010.
  • On 9/9/09, The Beatles Remastered Collection was released. Considering it’s the entire discography of the greatest band of all time, you should probably go get it right. Now. The Beatles: Rock Band was also released, and it’s awesome. You should get that, too.
  • brokeNCYDE still sucks ass.
Annnnnnnnnnddddd… that’s it. Sorry about the short post, I need some filler as I await band to end! Once that happens, I should be able to make a lot more posts. Thanks for your patience.
Categories: Metal, Today in Music

Review – War Is The Answer

October 1, 2009 Leave a comment
Five Finger Death Punch is not one of the world’s best known bands. But they’re certainly on their way there. They won the Metal Hammer Golden God Award for Best New Band earlier this year, and this album’s single Hard To See hit #12 in the U.S. Main Rock charts. These guys have it set up for success, and their first full-length album The Way Of The Fist, was loved by critics and fans alike. Yes, it seems that Five Finger is one their way to becoming the next SlipKnot (Okay, that’s a little too far). But does this new album live up to the growing reputation the band is building? You bet your ass it does.
War Is The Answer is the second album that these newcomers have released, and it’s takes everything that makes FFDP great, and increases it ten-fold. Ivan’s incredible screaming keeps things heavy and powerful, but is countered epicly by his singing voice, which provides a slower break from the face-melting power of most of the album. The backup vocals add a nice touch to the sound, and make it far more pleasing to the ear than if it was just Ivan’s roaring.
Zoltan (Lead guitars) lets out an impressive show, the many guitar solos you hear are executed with brilliance, and he retains that metal ‘twinge’ that makes any metal band, a metal band. Jason Hook (rythym guitar) keeps things interesting as he, well, does his job as a rythym player. He adds some great harmony to the guitar parts, and creates that extra layer of music that sometimes is missing from metal. I’d make a comment about Matt, their bassist, but, as any good bass player knows; you can never hear him. I’m sure you’d know if they took him out, though.
And dear Lord have mercy on Jeremy Spencer’s legs! That double-bass just sounds painful. But boy, is it awesome.
Really, the only thing I can say bad about War Is The Answer is this; every song follows the same pattern. “Heavy opening, verse, singing chorus, verse 2, sung chorus, bridge, repeat the chorus two or three more times.” That’s seriously it. Now, they do stray away from this through the songs “Hard To See,” “Crossing Over”, and “Canto 34”. Which are mostly singing – save for Canto, which is an instrumental song.
Trust me, though, this one flaw can be overlooked while you headbang your brains out to the awesomeness of this album. Whatever you may think of Five Finger from their silly name, this is an album that any metal head needs in their collection. Get it. Now.
Key Tracks;
  • Hard To See
  • Dying Breed
  • Bulletproof
  • My Own Hell
  • War Is The Answer